the Pit of Despair...

So, normally I have a point to what I write on here, but for some reason I just feel like getting everything kinda purged out of my system. Maybe it's cause I just finished watching The Notebook and I'm feeling all vulnerable and stuff...I dunno. ANYWAY, if you're looking for a story or something interesting like that, turn back now, cause I'm just gonna let it rip:


I've lately been thinking about how lonely I've felt. I mean, I know that I have great friends here, but there's something missing. Dylan and I are close, but there's a part of our friendship that hasn't developed yet and I'm feeling it's absence. I can't quite describe it...it's like I finally have that desire to find my soulmate, ya know? I'm perfectly satisfied being single, but there's this desire in me to have someone that I can pour out my heart to without any reservations. My heart just feels so sad right now...so heavy. I want to talk to someone, but everyone is pretty much in bed (it IS 2:30 AM afterall) and my roomate is gone for the weekend...maybe I'll go see if anyone is out in the lobby and I'll go write in my journal and read my Bible...yeah. That sounds like a good idea. I guess this isn't going to be as long as I thought it was going to be...