never again

I made a really stupid decision tonight. I thought that I'd watch Butterfly Effect...I will never watch that movie again in my life. I didn't even make it all the way through...I think I got about 70% through it and turned it off. There was just so much cussing and violence and, just inhuman stuff...we live in a truely sick world where people find entertainment in movies like this. True it was suspensful and well directed, but when I'm distracted from the movie that I'm watching because I'm SICKENED by what's written into the script. I feel nauseas...

My mom called to tell me tonight that my grandpa might have had a stroke yesterday. The doctors still aren't sure whether or not it was actually a stroke, but he has some of the symptoms, so for right now, that's what they're calling it. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't here and that I was at home with the rest of my family. Everyone else's families live really close to here, but not mine...they have to live in the opposite end of another state...it sucks...