i give up.

Things in my life are changing so quickly and some of the changes are breaking my heart...
There is a particular group of friends that I have who I used to be completely comfortable around, but now the dynamics have changed in a specific way, making me the square peg in a world of round holes (i.e. I no longer belong and I'm being inadvertantly pushed and nudged out of this circle of friends). It's not intentional...I know they're not sitting around and thinking up ways to make me uncomfortable, and it's not really anything that they can change. They're lives are different than mine now, and that difference is making it so that I can't be a part of "us" anymore. The worst part is, I feel like I'm loosing one of my best friends in the history of my LIFE because of it. I know that in they're mind, nothing has changed, but on my end...everything's different. We can hang out on our own and things are fine, but it's when the additional members of said "group" are added to the mixing pot, things are through into a whole new realm and I have a flashing neon sign over my head that says "LOOK AT ME! I'M THE ODD ONE OUT!"
And what's the difference that's making my life so sucky? What is it about me that has me pushed to the outskirts?

I'm single.