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To those of you who protest those sad and depressed blog entries, I'm giving you fair warning so you can't yell at me: THIS IS A SAD AND DEPRESSED BLOG ENTRY! DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER!!
There. Can't say I didn't warn you.
So, I thought I saw someone today...someone that I miss alot...someone that I've heard from only once the entire time I've been home...and it made me sad. How is it possible to live in a tiny, 2-room house with three other people and eight pets, and still feel so completely and desperately alone? I mean, I've honestly never been this lonely before in my life. It's like I'm sitting and waiting for something to happen to make this summer worth not killing myself over, and it's not coming...I've never dreaded my birthday more than I do this summer. None of my high-school friends have shown any interest in getting in contact with me (and I know for a fact that they have been hanging out without me), and I'm not close to anyone in my family really. I know you guys know this, but I miss you all so much. I can't be any more sincere than I'm being right now (I mean seriously people! I'm sitting here crying while I'm writing this). I miss having our talks Maves, and I miss eating lunch with you Erin, and I miss being angry with you Kyle ( with you...not at you), and I miss laughing with you Bohl, and I miss hearing you pray in the corner of the lobby Haskell, and I miss taking naps on eachother Bree...I just miss you guys. Please know that even though I can't hang out with you guys or take roadtrips to visit you or anything that you guys can do, I still love you and I pray to God with all of my heart and soul that I will be back in August. Thank God every day that you are able to be close to the friends that you love, cause it sucks when you can't.
Love you guys.
-tara nichole
There. Can't say I didn't warn you.
So, I thought I saw someone today...someone that I miss alot...someone that I've heard from only once the entire time I've been home...and it made me sad. How is it possible to live in a tiny, 2-room house with three other people and eight pets, and still feel so completely and desperately alone? I mean, I've honestly never been this lonely before in my life. It's like I'm sitting and waiting for something to happen to make this summer worth not killing myself over, and it's not coming...I've never dreaded my birthday more than I do this summer. None of my high-school friends have shown any interest in getting in contact with me (and I know for a fact that they have been hanging out without me), and I'm not close to anyone in my family really. I know you guys know this, but I miss you all so much. I can't be any more sincere than I'm being right now (I mean seriously people! I'm sitting here crying while I'm writing this). I miss having our talks Maves, and I miss eating lunch with you Erin, and I miss being angry with you Kyle ( with you...not at you), and I miss laughing with you Bohl, and I miss hearing you pray in the corner of the lobby Haskell, and I miss taking naps on eachother Bree...I just miss you guys. Please know that even though I can't hang out with you guys or take roadtrips to visit you or anything that you guys can do, I still love you and I pray to God with all of my heart and soul that I will be back in August. Thank God every day that you are able to be close to the friends that you love, cause it sucks when you can't.
Love you guys.
-tara nichole
posted by Temair at 12:41 AM
3 Comments:
I hear the sadness in your writing and know that being back home when no one is interested in being with you just sucks. it has been since the summer of 1977 before you were on this earth that I had the same problem. I came home from school worked and then went back just counting the days till I was back where I had things to do and people to see. I hope that you find a bright moment to make your summer better. Ill keep you in my thoughts and prayers
jeremy
Tera... did you even read that article?
"His children" aren't rejecting His love
becuase there is no love for them to reject.
join zee cloob. I miss you too.
Kyle and I are getting married.
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