come out come out...

Some times I think that I am so good at hiding things, I hide them even from myself. I'm happy and content and loving my life and my friends right now...It's gorgeous outside and I am living on 4 1/2 hours of sleep, but I don't even care because what I gained from staying up until 4:00 AM is worth every ounce of tiredness that I could possibly feel as a result of it. And in the midst of all this incredible happiness and sudden desire to run home and spend the say at Disneyland (ah yes...the happiest place on earth...), I realize things about the people I love, and I wonder how the heck I missed it before, but then I realize that I've known it all along and have been so intent on hiding it from them that I've hidden it from myself and then I wonder how bad of a thing that really is and what else I'm not realizing about myself and my relationships with other people because I'm so scared of it coming out into the open *breath*. There are going to be alot of changes in my life at home this summer...Alot of new people in my church family, at my work, in my life in general, and I wonder how it will effect me and my relationships that I have built at Fox and that I still have as a result of going to school with the same people since 1st grade. I'm excited and scared to see where things go this summer and what new things will happen to me within the next few months and the rest of my life.

Yay!