living up to my own expectations

So, we haven't even started the school year yet and already things are moving like nobody's buisness! I just got an email from the theatre director, Rhett, telling me that auditions for the fall show are on Wednesday...WEDNESDAY!!! That's, like, next WEEK! I just might pee my pants. All of the shows this year have huge female roles (two of them are starring), and I'm scared to death. Have you ever been put up against yourself and realized that you are being tested? Coming into this year, with 3 of the major players in the competition for female leads graduated, I'm going to be finding out alot about myself and my "abilities". I'm scared to be plopped in front of an impartial director whom I've never worked with before and with whom I have no repoir, cause he definitely won't beat around the bush with criticisms that I've never heard. I'm sitting here, memorizing my monologue and spazing...Last year, I didn't get the part I auditioned for twice, and I really really don't want to have to do that all over again. This is what I want to do with my life, and it's kinda unsettling when you're asked to prove yourself all over again.