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Often I wish that I was more than I am.
That I was a better friend, daughter, fiance...

I want to be extraordinary; special.

I think that this is a common desire in most human beings, and especially in women who have a hard time feeling sufficient.
I feel insufficient a lot of the time, and I wish that I didn't.



I want to be better for you...MORE for you. I don't deserve your forgiveness, or you in general. I love you more than anything in this world, and I'm sorry that I will never be quite as much as you deserve.

I love you.