All's fair. But is this love, or war?

Things are what you make of them, right? I mean, if an opportunity presents itself, you've got to take advantage of it, don't you? The problem is, how far is too far to go in order to get it? I don't like hurting people, but I also don't like watching what I've wanted for so long, slip away for fear of disappointing friends and peers.
Arg.

Please smile,
Smile again.
Shine sun, once more.
Beat heart, at last.
Life, find purpose
When he
Smiles,
Smiles again.

78-51: Bruin's game

I'm sitting in the Bruin's Den at 10:25PM waiting until 11 when I have to go to work. Yes. That's right. 11PM. *sigh* Oh well...That's more money for me, right?

I just got back from the guys' basketball game against PLU and we kicked ass (again). I screamed myself hoarse cheering for Phil Heu-Weller and now my throat hurts and I'm tired and I want to go home and sleep or watch a movie or something. But no, I have to go finish building a freaking set that I'm not even going to be on. No work tomorrow though! Woot!

Well, I'm going to stop rambling now and maybe make use of my free-time to do homework or something productive like that.

who? me?

I feel like my brain has been sucked out through my eyes...It's a disturbing thought, I know, but a very applicable one.
I've noticed lately that I'm becoming more and more invested in my friends' problems...Not all of them of course, but just enough to exhaust my head until I have no time or energy to worry about myself or the crap I'm dealing with in my life.

Maybe that's the point.

Girls are stupid and I hate them.
Seriously though, sometimes I am ashamed to call myself female.

At a loss for everything

My friend is hurting badly and I don't know how to help. I want to say something, do something, but I don't know what...
All I can do is hug him and let him know he's loved. Other than that, I have no idea.
I hate not being in control.

oh, the anticipation.

The day has finally come to return back to school and start another rip-roarin' semester. I'm glad to get back to routine and distraction, not to mention colder weather (boo-hiss on 75 degree Christmases). I'm ready to see what happens this semester, and kinda excited too...There's alot of potential in the upcoming months in all areas of life...
This should be interesting...