finite!

Only 3 1/2 hours left until I leave for the airport and only 8 hours until my flight leaves for LA!!!! Ahh!!! I can't wait to get home! I talked to my mom last night and apparently our old neighbor, Rona, bought me two tickets for La Boheme on Sunday! And their floors seats too! I told Susan and she told me than I officially ruined Christmas for her. We've decided that she needs to come home with me some summer in the near future so that we can go to plays together.
I just finished my Lit final. It was pretty easy, but my hand was starting to cramp up from all the writing.
I already packed last night...Even though I'm excited to see my mom, I'm gonna go crazy missing everyone, but especially Dylan. I haven't seen him yet today, but we're definately gonna have some goodbye time.
Emily took me out to the stable that she works at and I went riding in the arena for a little while. It was fun except for the fact that I haven't ridden (really ridden) in years, so I had to re-learn how to do some stuff, but once Em told me, I was fine.

Shower time!

the countdown continues

Well, I had my first two finals today. Voice went really well (except that I forgot the words to one of the verses on my second song, but I'll be fine) and stagecraft was really fun. Our teacher divided the 12 of us up into 3 teams and we had to complete certain tasks in all the categories (paint, color, electric, lighting, etc...). Of course, I got black paint all over my favorite pair of jeans, but on the bright side, it's water based and should mostly come out. I'll still wear them if it doesn't though...looks kinda bohemian and cool...

ANYWAY, I have a math final tomorrow morning at 8 and I'm gonna study for it later tonight with Kim and Kayan and Kyle.

I went to the Coffee Cottage with Hannah this morning and we had a really good talk about pretty much everything. She's such an awesome girl and I'm so glad that I'm blessed enough to know her.

We had an awesome worship session in the lobby last night; it was great to see Eli and Adam come into the lobby and join in when they heard us start to sing. I love watching those boys worship; it's so honest and awe-filled.

I haven't seen Dylan yet today. We IMd for a little while and he told me that we'll "definately" hang out at some point tonight. I just like to think about how good it felt to have his head on mine last night...I like having friends that I can trust implicitly and be completley comfortable with. Hannah and I were talking about that this morning actually, and how it's amazing that some of the people that I've met here at school within the past three months are closer to me than alot of my friends at home that I've known since I was in first grade...it's mostly because they're so close to God and I can connect with them so much better. Still, I can't wait to go home and see everyone again. I miss Liz and Britt and Ana and it'll be good to hear what everyone's been up to the past few months..............................................
Only two more days and I'm on the plane home...FINALLY!

mellow yellow (...yellow dello that is!)

Tonight was probably the best night I've had with Dylan so far.
We were watching a Pablo Herrera video in the lobby with Erin, Kyle, Brianna, and Jessica and Dylan and I were sitting next to eachother on the couch. After the video was done, I tugged on his sleeve to get his attention and said, "I'm glad I didn't have to leave." and he said, "Yeah...me too..." and laid his head down on my head. So we sat there with my head on his shoulder and his head on mine for about 10-15 minutes. I've never been that relaxed in my whole time here at GFU. He just has a way with making me feel very peaceful...plus he smells good, so that helps in the relaxation process. I also got a really good hug B4 we went to our rooms to sleep, and even though we didn't have any in-depth conversations, I wouldn't trade the 20 we sat on that couch together for any of our talks so far.

Welp, I've gotta get up in 4 1/2 hours to have coffee with Hannah and warm up for my singing final at 1:00 and review/change for my stagecraft final at 3:00.

g'night

what if...?

So, my life has been devoted to painting my stage flat for Stagecraft for the past two days and now I can say that I'm finally DONE! Woot! It doesn't look as good as I'd like, but what can ya do, right?

I have my first two finals tomorrow (singing and stagecraft) which are not going to be hard at all; I'm definately not worried. Math and Lit are the only two that I'm semi-concerned about, but Math is open book/open note and Lit shouldn't be too bad. All in all, I'd say I got off pretty easily as far as finals are concerned this semester.

I pretty much have the $ situation straightened out for next semester...I'm excited cause I have some really great classes that should be really fun.

I sat up with Dylan until 4 something this morning and read and listened to him sing to me...he's pretty great. One of my girlfriends Noelle (who was interested in him at the beginning of the semester) asked me today if I though I would ever go out with Dylan. I think I would (obviously if he didn't have a girlfriend; I would never try to take any guy away from a relationship). We get along REALLY well and I enjoy spending time with him, so why not? I don't think it'd get in the way of our friendship if we ended up breaking up. BUT seeing as how this hypothetical would NEVER happen, why even speculate?

...it's just kinda interesting to think about...

nutcrackering

Last night was so much fun!!!!!!!!

Everyone left for the Nutcracker at around 3:30 and we got there in plenty of time to get to our seats and everyone get arranged. The ballet was really good and it was Brittany and Nicki's first time seeing a ballet, so that was pretty exciting. Eli actually liked it (although he was a bit ashamed to admit it at first). Adam was in a MAJOR crappy mood the entire time cause he double-booked himself and commited to going with some girl to the Jingle Bell Hop and paid to go to the Nutcracker. He thought that we weren't gonna make the dance in time and was all droopy cause he felt bad...

ANYWAY, we went to McDonald's after the show and I found out that Eli and this chick Margy might have something going on; I'm not sure how I feel about that...actually, I AM sure...I DON'T LIKE IT ONE BIT!!!!!

We made it to the dance in plenty of time (it started at 8 and we got there at 8:15), Adam met up with is date, and all the boys who went with us to the show went off with their dates that us girls didn't know they had, so it was kinda weird (at least Eli's date wasn't Margy).

I danced with my girlfriends the whole night and was asked to dance by Cary (who is an amazing dancer by the way). It was pretty great. Eli came walking past me and kinda laid his hand on my back and patted my shoulder and said "Hey!"...sigh... (GEEZ I can be such a girl some times!)

The dance ended at 11:00; Adam and Eli went to go hang out with their dates and their friends and we went home. As soon as we got into the lobby, I flopped down on the couch next to Dylan, laid my head on his chest, and about fell asleep. Luckily, I made it to my bed in time and slept there, not waking up till 11:30 (then realizing that I was late for my theatre-major's assesment).

The rest of the day will be devoted to painting my stagecraft flat and studying.

adios!

countdown...

Well, I'm leaving for the Nutcracker in 1 1/2 hours..I'm so excited! This is gonna be so much fun! Aaaahhhh! Not much else to say for now; I'll tell how everything went after I get home at some point this evening/this morning.

i love having friends

Last night (actually, it was more like the morning) was SO MUCH FUN!!!! I went out into the dorm lobby at 3:30 AM to ask one of the girls out there a question and ended up getting sucked into a early--morning run to Sheri's with several of the guys from Penn 2 (Dylan included). It was me, Dylan, Heather, Brianna, Randy, Jordan, Donny, Josh, and Justin...it was pretty great. I sat next to Dylan and we joked around and had lots of fun. I love how physically comfortable we are with eachother...I love that kid. Have I said that lately? He gave me another amazing hug (or, more like 2-3 hugs) and told me again that everything would be okay and that everything would work out for school and hugged me some more and stroked my head and hugged me...he's so comforting. I love it when he looks me dead in the eyes and gets a little smile on his face and says, "Just hold it up...pray. Everything will work out. You'll be fine, so don't worry." and then gives me another amazing hug. I sent him an email last night/this morning before we left for Sherri's telling him how much I appreciate him and how he would be what I miss the most if I had to leave this semester. Thank you SO MUCH for blessing me with an incredible friend like Dylan God.

oh what a wonderful WEEEEEkend!

So, maybe my friend Noelle had a total DTR with this guy that she likes named Cary and they've decided that they're both open to future possibilities but that they're going to take it slowly cause they want to make sure that God stays first in their lives...BUT at least Noelle now knows that Cary is interested in her, which is pretty exciting (especially for those of us who aren't getting ANY romantic action whatsoever...)

The choir has another concert tonight that I'm going to go to. I already went to opening night at the church in Portland, so I've seen the concert, but since I couldn't be in choir this year, I'm living vicariously through Susan and Eli.

Sunday is going to be SO MUCH FUN! I'm going to Imago Dei with Hannah again, then it's back home to get ready to leave for the Nutcracker at 3:00, then it's off to Portland to the Jingle Bell Hop (i.e. the school-sponsered swing dance). This weekend in general is going to be lots o' fun...I just hope and (most importantly) pray that it's not my last...

please God...please...

So today kinda really sux. I just found out that I might not be coming back to school after Christmas break cause I might not be able to get the money together in time...I can't leave...I CAN'T! I've prayed and prayed and I guess now it's just waiting and seeing what God does. Everything is out of my hands. If He wants me here, He'll work it out. I just don't like things being so up in the air (in MY perspective anyway; He already knows what's going to happen and what's best for me in the long run). I trust Him to do what's best, I just hope that He decides that it's best for me to stay here. It really seems like He wants me here...I can only hope and pray that I'm right. But I need to remember that I need to trust HIM! He is God after all...He kinda knows a little more about the situation then I do...

WES!!!! ARG!!!!!

So, let me tell you a story called I am PISSED OFF at Wesley!!!!!!!!
Wes invited me and two other girls from my floor (Heather and Jessica) to go to a play with him in Portland. We all said yes and gave him $17 to pay for tickets. Now, $17 to a college student is BIG $, but I was willing to pay it cause I'm used to going to lots and lots of plays growing up in LA and I hadn't been to any since I came to school.

ANYWAY, Wes' car had been giving him problems, so Jessica offered to let him drive HER car to Portland (which is 30-45 minutes away and Wes was about 15 minutes late as it was...). He says no no no...my car'll be fine. Well, we didn't even make it 6 blocks and it died while we were driving. Luckily, one of our friends from school was driving by and tried to jump the car but it wouldn't work so Wes had to call a towtruck and James, the guy who stopped, had to drive us three girls home and now we're all out $17 and Wes won't/can't pay us back and so I'm really annoyed *breath*.

On a good note, my rockin roomate Emily is buying me a ticket to see the Nutcracker with a bunch of friends from school (Eli included...he he he) as a Christmas present, but I feel really guilty cause it's $22 and I can't afford to buy her much of anything. Oh well...I'll figure something out.

yay for church!

Today was a really good day. I went to this church in Portland called Imago Dei and it's amazing. I think I've finally found a church I want to stick with. The sermon was about how we need to be prepared for Christ to return and how we should prepare by loving others and seving them. The worship was wonderful too; the worship band was two acoustic guitars and a cello...how AWESOME is THAT?! Of course it was an added bonus that I got to go with Eli. He's so much fun! Not to mention the fact that Adam went with us and he's great too. Hannah was there too; I LOVE that girl. She's so sweet. I used to not like her because she's one of those girls who's SO nice that all the guys love her...it was jealousy I guess. I finished my homework for tomorrow, so I think I'll watch Gladiator and wait for Dylan to get home.