ups and downs

I am SO ready for school to start again! My years of 17 and 18 credit semesters have finally paid off, and I get to take (most) all of the classes I've been wanting to take since I came to Fox in the first place. Work sucks my days dry and is boring as hell, but the days are slipping by with relative speed, and I am thrilled that June is over. 1 1/2 months (theoretically), and I quit my job and spend the last week or so before school playing in Los Angeles with Jordan. If everything goes as planned, it should be the best week of my summer. Now all I have to do is get through the monotonously slow days themselves.

In other news, my uncle came back to my house today to try and justify his and my aunt's way out of us being pissed at them for evicting us. It's amazing how twisted the human mind can get.

Holy SHIT weddings are expensive!

Anyone wanna give me money for a ceremony/reception site? Anyone?...

yeesh

What do you do when you realize that your entire life is going to change drastically within approximately 1 year? I mean, it's one thing to be surprised by stuff, but I've got time to prepare and think about all the upcoming events, and they're scaring me. I'm going to be getting engaged within the next few months, starting my senior year of college, trying to find a job for after I graduate, and looking for an apartment for after school ends because I'm getting MARRIED in about a year! All that combined with being evicted by my aunt and moving at the end of the summer, and trying to find about $13,000 for school for next year and my head is spinning. I think about everything a lot, and I'm scared to death/really excited. I won't be able to see Jordan again until mid-August, so there is a lot of separation anxiety right now, and I feel like I'm standing on the edge of something huge without any assurances of whether or not my life is going to turn out well. Thankfully I've got a wonderful man to support me and an omnitiant (sp?) and omnipotent God that I can trust in implicitly. Unfortunately, trust is the biggest issue that I've ever had in my entire life, so it's going to be a struggle. Bah.