without

Ah, holidays. They make me laugh.
I've been at Dania's since Thursday morning, and it's been so nice to just be in a real house. Seriously. I mean, I live in a house on campus, but it's not the same thing. D's family has been in their house for going on over 20 years now, so it's got that accumulated "stuff" coziness that MY house has from being lived in for 18 years. It reminds me alot of home, which is a good thing right now.
ANYway, we're leaving tomorrow around 3ish and having dinner at Tyler's house with his family in Roseburg, so we'll be getting home around 10ish. It couldn't come soon enough. I miss Jordan. Alot. Bah. This is the longest that we've been apart...I don't know how we're going to handle Christmas break. Or SUMMER! Oh man. Yeah. It's rough. Well, I'll see him tomorrow night. I just have to hold out until then. For now, I'll listen to the mix CDs he made me. It'll have to do.

breathless

Jordan and I are getting married.
It's not going to be for several years (his senior year of school, at the soonest), but it's going to happen.
We laid on my bed for close to 4 hours today, talking about our wedding, honeymoon, kids(!), Christmas traditions...EVERYTHING! It was the best day of my life. He is my greatest blessing, and my biggest fear in this life is that I will lose him somehow. I'm pretty damn positive that it won't be by his own doing, but you never know what else is out there...I don't know how I would survive without him.
ANYway, I am WAY beyond excited for the rest of my life with Jordan. AH!!! *sigh* I never thought that this would happen...I've lived with the idea that guys just don't like me like that. And now I've got an incredibly good-looking man who wants to be by my side forever :0) :0) :0)
Someone up there must love me alot.