musing on absolutely nothing

I've been thinking...Even if going back to school doesn't work out, I might just move up to Newberg anyway (although I'm not exactly sure where I would live, where I would work, how I would pay for food...you know...little things like that). I mean, how the freaking HECK am I supposed to live in my mom's house for more than the required 4 months without my BRAIN exploding?!
Yay for working and getting paid $8.10 per hour and having money! For some reason, life is so much easier when you can buy things...like pants...and shoes...and emus...and asparaguses (asparagi?)...and mices...and turtle wax...and doorknob screws...and magenta-colored construction paper...and peanut butter flavored toothpaste...and chainlink fences...Alright I'm done.

lights on...who's home?

I've just figured out that I don't live in my house anymore...I'm just visiting for the summer and then I'm out. I've been here for 3 weeks and I'm still sleeping on the couch. Sucky, huh? I've been living in this house for 15 years and after being gone for 8 months, I'm sleeping in the livingroom. I can't wait to get out of here for good...

all i ask

Guys, I need all the prayer you can give right now. My grandma has cancer...again. She had it before and went through Chemo and surgery, but it came back again. I'd like my grandma to be around for my college graduation, but we don't know if that will happen. Not to mention the fact that she lives in Oklahoma, so I have no idea when I will be able to see her next. The doctors and hospitals aren't working, so right now, all I can think of is God...Please pray.

Thanks.

boo!

The future is kinda scary...that's all there is to it really.

semi-redundant

These are fun! Woo-hoo!! (And if you recieved this email already, oh well)

Time started? 5:48

Name? Tara Nichole Strever

Nickname? Taracita, Dreidle, Nicki, Annie, Nichole (pronounced ni-cho-lay...stupid dylan...)

Sex? female

Birthday? June 18

Sign? gemini

Sibling?4...three brothers, one sister

Hair colour? dk brownish reddish

Eye colour? dk green

Shoe size?9-10

Innie or Outie? Innie

What are you wearing right now? jeans and my Les Miserables t-shirt...no shoes

Where do you live? Los Angeles, CA...when i am not at school in Newberg

Righty or lefty? lefty!!!

Can you make a dollar change right now? surprisingly enough, yes

-------------------------------- Relationships ------------------------------------------

Who are your closest friends? Dylan, Bree, Kyle, Erin, Liz, Nahum

Favorite place to go for a date? Umm..I'm still a fan of the whole "dinner and movie" thing, and sports games, and go-kart racing (which i love anyway)

------------------------------------- Fashion Stuff ------------------------------------------

Where is your fav place to shop? Target and Old Navy (they're fun)

Do you have any tattoos or piercings? two piercings in each ear, one tattoo on the inside of my right wrist

------------------------------------------- Favorites ------------------------------------------

Colour? peacock blue

Number? 8! my old volleyball number!!

Food? Lasagna, corn bread, Ceasar salad... but anything Italian pretty much, green apples

Boys name? Aiodhan, Patrick, Westley

Girls name? Brenna, Londynn, Rowan, Rebecca

Subject in school? high school: AP English and choir, college: stagecraft

Animal? CATS! woot! and snakes and big dogs...ferrets too...and I guess i wouldn't mind owning a basilisk or two (that one's for you, Erin!)

Drink? "girlie drinks"...you know, maragritas, daquries, wine coolers, etc...

Celebrity? Audrey Hepburn, Sandra Bullock, Val Kilmer, Johnny Depp

Fast food place? Arby's, Baja Fresh, Subway

Place to visit: i'd LIKE to visit New York City and Ireland, but my fav place so far has been Las Vegas and Oklahoma

Month? November

Show? CSI, Law and Order (all of them), Medium, Home, and Extreme Makeover Home Edition, Everybody Loves Raymond, SCRUBS!

Juice? pineapple/orange/banana and pineapple/strawberry/banana

Ice Cream? peppermint, chocolate chip cookie dough

Breakfast? cheese eggs, Bon potatoe chunks and my waffles

Perfume? Adidas' Moves

Favorite cartoon character? Donald Duck and Bugs Bunny

Have You Ever Given anyone a bath? my siblings when they were/are little

smoked? nope nope

Bungee jumped? I wish!

Broken the law? nooooo...

Made yourself throw-up? yes

Been in the opposite sex's washroom? only when there was no one else in there...i don't really remember why i was there...it was in high school, so it could've been anything

Eaten a dog biscuit? no

Put your tongue on a frozen pole? yup (but it didn't stick thank goodness)

Ever "loved" someone that made you cry? yes

Broken a bone? i've been fractured, sprained and ripped, but not flat out broken

Played truth or dare? haha, haven't we all

Been in a physical fight? only when i beat up on Dylan

Been in a police car? no

Been on a plane? mm-hmm, and i LOVE it

Been in a sauna? yes, and I almost choked to death on the stupid steam

Been in a hot tub? yes

Swam in the ocean? yes, and ewww...i hate sandy water

fallen asleep in school? um, DUH.

Kissed your cousin? on the cheek

Pictured your crush naked? i am sure i have

Ever had a sex dream? yes

Broken someone's heart? yeah. it's not fun.

Cried when someone/thing died? yes

Flashed someone? heck no!

Lied? Of Course.

Laughed so hard you fell off your chair? Yep !

Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call? haha yes (and yes, it finally came)

Saved MSN conversations? all of them baby...all of them...

saved e-mails? Yes

Wished you were someone else? um, yeah

Wished you were a member of the opposite sex? when "that time" comes around, ALL girls do!

made out with JUST a friend? absolutely not

Been rejected? yup. i didn't like it.

Been in love? yes

Done something you regret? a couple things, but nothing life-changing

----------------------------------------- First Thing That Comes to Mind ------------------------------------------

Red: hair

blue: i'm not saying cause Erin Kress will never let me live it down

Happy: birthday

Autumn: leaves

Cow:hamburger

------------------------------------------ What Is ------------------------------------------

Your good luck charm? don't have one

Stupidest thing you have ever done? ask Dylan

Whats your room like? as my mom would say, "It looks like a tornado ran through this room!"

Your most prized possession? my Celtic cross necklace, Claddagh ring, blue teddy bear and my magic 8-ball

Last thing you said? shut up Jerren (my brother)

next to you: the rocking chair in our livingroom

Last thing you ate? a green apple with caramel

Fav song? 'Hotel California' (the Eagles), 'Don't Wanna Miss a Thing' (Aerosmith), 'At Last' (Etta James), 'Just the Way you Look Tonight' (Sinatra)

What kind of shampoo do you use? Herbal Essences and Pantine (it varies)

Thing that has happened to you this year? i remembered that it's OK to trust people sometimes and realized that not all guy friends are shallow and vapid

----------------------------------------- Have You Ever Had ------------------------------------------

Chicken pox? Yes

Sore Throat? Yes

Cold? Yes

Stitches? heck yes (have you seen my ankle?)

Bloody nose? yep

------------------------------------------ Do you ------------------------------------------

Believe in love at first sight? no

Enjoy parks? Yes

Like picnics? Yeah

Like school? yep! Fox rox! woot!

What schools have you gone to? Westminster, Eagle Rock Elementary, Golden West Christian, Pacific Christian High, GFU

--------------------------------------- Would You ---------------------------------------

Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000? no no no no no!

Go to a hanson concert if you had a free ticket? sure...why not?...other than bleeding out through my ears...wait. Nevermind. No.

Kill someone you didn’t know for 15 billion dollars? no

If you were stuck on an island, what person would you want with you? if you know me, you know the answer to that question

If you loved someone and u were keeping something from them and it would hurt them if they found out, would you tell them? if you truly love them then i would expect no less

----------------------------------- Who -----------------------------------

Will send it back? anyone who sends it back i guess...i dont know

Who is the last person that called you? a potential job

Makes you laugh the most? Dylan. hands down. (shut it Kress)

Is your loudest friend? ERIN FREAKING KRESS!!! ("Hey! Why is it so quiet in here?! Make friends people!" sound familiar?)

------------------------------------------ Do You/Are You ------------------------------------------

Do you like filling these out? admittedly, yes

Do you like yourself? depends which aspect of myself you mean...but honestly, as a whole, not really

Do you get along with your family? Yes

Color your hair? sometimes

Have piercings below the waist? i'm not even going to dignifiy that queston with a response (i.e. HECK NO!!!!)

Habla espanol? muy piqueno

Stolen anything over £50? over 50 pounds? can't really say i've stolen any British currency in my life...

Obsessive? depends what about

Compulsive? (see above)

Anorexic? no

Depressed? sometimes

Suicidal? No

Time Ended? 6:36 (between making dinner and talking to Bree and Em, it took 41 minutes)

don't I wish

Sooooo...yeah. Um, alright then. Nothin much has happened so far. My jobs that I applied for are still undecided and I have yet to see any of my high school friends (not that I'm complaining, really). These past few days have druuuuuug ooooon like none other, which is really annoying cause now is when I want them to move the fastest so we can just start school again.
I have and idea: How about we all move into Penn and take over the school administration so that we can live there, but don't have to take any classes? It'll be like, some...Quaker commune or something...

Ode to a sister

This post is a tribute to one of my closest friends in the world, Brianna Metzler. *Ahem ahem*...
Brianna, oh Brianna, what can I say? You are freakin awesome and I love you, that's what! Yay for talking online while we're 3 feet apart, for taking naps on eachother in the lobby, for watching Stewart and Lorraine on my laptop, for reviving our 8th grade love-triangles (you know what i mean), for lots and lots of eye makeup, for finishing eachother's sentences and for saving horses and riding cowboys at Spring Formal. You rock my life woman and I think of you as a sister in every way. If I could, I would move in with you like Dylan told me to...Unfortunately, I'm stuck in stinking Los Angeles for the next four months. *Sigh* Oh well. I can't wait to spend the day with you and Heather in a few months! I love you girlie and I miss you SO MUCH (you're 3rd on "The List" after all ;0) See ya in a little while!

rehash the past over a steaming cup of internet messenger

I talked to some Fox people today, but I'm not sure whether or not it was a good thing. Now I miss everyone more than ever...It was nice though...to get caught up on everything that's people have been doing. I hate how unsure the future is sometimes. I guess it's a good thing God takes care of it all...otherwise I'd go insane.

Today I saw a silver Ion...and thought of "The Magic Bus"

Today I played with my brother's new pet...and thought of "Ferret-Erin"

Today I saw a female wrestler on TV...and thought of "Brianna Madness"

Today I saw a Marlboro billboard...and thought of "Ty, the Sex Cowboy"

Today I saw a bird...and thought of "Cock-a-Doodle Dylan"


Every day I see things that bring back memories of times and memories shared at Fox, and even though they're just memories, I wouldn't trade them for the world.

brother in blood only

Two days being home and I can't wait to leave again.
I've never got along with my younger brother, Jerren, which my mom and I have fought about before. Now, she says that because I don't hug him, I obviously don't love him...I wonder if she's right...I mean, ever since he was old enough to reason and think, my brother has been manipulative and deceptive, acting one way around my mom and step-dad, and a completly different way around me, just to get me in as much trouble as possible. I wonder if this is why I can't stand him most of the time. And now he's entering puberty, so his hormones are flipping out and he's even more of a brat than usual. I don't think he loves me past the base love one blood relative has for another, and I sometimes wonder if I have the same kind of love. Of course, my mom refuses to hear that her "soft-hearted" little man is anything less that a sweet young boy just going through a hard time. This is, of course, what he wants...he has her wrapped around his finger and he knows it. I'm expected to put up with all of his crap because I'm older; instead of telling him to stop and correcting his behavior, I'm told to suck it up. I wish I didn't have to work this summer, or else I'd go back up to school and live there...or anywhere else for that matter. I come back home and my bed isn't even my bed anymore; it's my brother's. Everything is different and nothing belongs to me anymore...I'm just a visitor sleeping on the couch for the next four months, eating someone else's food, using someone else's electricity and water...I can't wait to move away again and for good, but I can't tell my mom that, cause she'd never understand. I was so looking forward to being home again, but all it's been is bad.
Oh well.
Work starts soon and I'll be gone all day and can just drive around or read in my room at night.
I miss you guys so much.
GOSH! I thought I'd be done with this crying thing already!

1 hour in counting

I just got home about 1 hour ago...I'm so flipping tired.
More is coming later, but there's not much to write about yet, so...later.


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